They tried to make him go to relapse i said no no no

Damn it i'm sick of relapses. At around 6.15 am today my dad went into *another* seizure. xian.

Why is it that every "holiday" my dad has to go into some kind of seizure? And early in the morning when i want to sleep? super xian...

Thankfully its not too bad. The seizure around 6.15 am. Apparently he was well enough to go church, thank God. Didn't go hospital this time (we felt there was no need to). Mum didn't panic like last time (now its like routine liao lol), and my brother was around this time.

Just some background info: about 6-8 years ago, my dad was a train wreck. Dunno what happen, it was like multiple diseases come and simultaneously attack dad. Brain stroke, intestinal bleeding, diabetes, and other stuff all one day conspired and said "hey lets whack Ben's dad at the same time!" and sent dad all the way to the ICU, and even death for about 14 seconds. But for some reason ( or maybe its divine intervention) he recovered fully. No stroke, no intestinal bleeding, nothing. Its like as if the diseases said "screw it" and left dad. Thank God.

But the stroke is still a little stubborn. Apparently the *church-famous* seizure in july was just a "side-effect" or "minor relapse" of whatever.

Hopefully the last one is also something minor. Dammit im sick of seeing him get into fits early in the morning.

And I'm sick of going back to bed after that to start thinking about what would happen if he just died. Horrible sickening feeling.

Side-effects be gone!

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Had uber-Carolling practice today. I was pretty happy at first, singing the songs and smiling and stuff. But then i had to play guitar....

I never screwed up so bad since i first played in Church. I messed up just about every song, and everyone could notice it, especially Dawn, our conductor. I didn't know why i was so nervous. I played in front with an electric guitar so many times, but strumming the classical guitar is very different. You can't screw up, unlike playing electric guitar in a band where you can make mistakes and no one will really notice. I guess i will have to quit electric guitar until Christmas and focus on strumming. Strumming is really sian


On a lighter note: Joseph from NZ is back!!!!! for 2 whole years!!!!! We got lots of catching up to do dude.