Dictionary for frustrated people

Medical Electronics [med-i-kuh i-lek-tron-iks, ee-lek-tron-iks]

-noun

1. A compulsory core subject in Biomedical Informatics & Engineering that Ben Leong is going to fail so bad
2. A inane process of doing something over and over and over and over again to see some elusive signal in a oscilloscope
3. Something that one puts in all his blood, sweat and tears in, but yielding nothing in return.



Pardon my language, but I really need to let it out.

FUCK IT.

Sorry.

I need something to at least work so badly. Let's not talk about any other subjects. Like Netfund. Why does it seem like I'm the only one in class who find it repulsive?


HALP

Every new beginning come from some other beginning's end.

First off, I would like to announce that Beninhisden.blogspot.com will be made obsolete soon. I just not a blog kind of person, I realised.

And blogspot is unfriendly in uploading images.
Blogspot is quite fail actually.

I'm kind of thinking of starting anew... u know? something more different. more weird. more adventurous. more epic.

Not a blog though.

Maybe like a personal website or something.

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I like comics.
I like songwriting.
I like photography.
I hate blogging. Or reading other ppl's blogs, for the matter. Not yours, though. Your blog is awesome. If you have one. I'm talking about other people's ones. Yep.


All my life, I had lots of ideas running around my head. They can be anything involving me doing something big. And successful. Things like manning a successful enterprise. Or being a successful rock star. Or a successful rugby player.

Then I have more simple but still kinda-unrealistic ideas. Like successfully writing a proper song. Or have my own successful webcomic. Or successfuly updating a blog.

But the thing is, no matter what dreams or what funny ideas i have, I never even accomplish it.

Because I don't even attempt it.

Damn you facebook quizzes, computer games, bad websites... damn you things that waste my time!

I wasted a good amount of my life on things that never mattered. Maybe it mattered for that minute. I did not use it to start building my dreams into reality.

Simple "dreams" like getting my GPA out of the 2.3 region (there. I made it public) by actually sitting down and studying has been destroyed because of my love of wasting time. I am more than capable of doing it. But the point is, i'm not even trying.

rrrgh.

Anyway, my current short term goal is to score good marks for my semester exams. Thats my last chance of redemption. Quizzes are gone. Virtually all of them.

Oh, and also to reach school on time for once.

Unfortunately, the only way to do this is to declare war on everything that stops me from doing anything productive. (except playing guitar. That is considered productive usage of time. Seriously)

First thing to do is to stop typing now at 1.15 am and actually sleep early. That way I won't wake up late tomorrow.

Next, I should try and write another song.

Then spent some time with God, and sleep.

Wake up early.

Revise maths for upcoming quiz.

Start soldering. Yes, i did not even solder my ecg project. I'm probally the last one in class.

Shit!







Anyway, back to my first point, i'll probably stop updating beninhisden. Maybe only for memes, because memes are awesome.

Blogging is a total waste of time.

But ironically i hope to start another blog once exams are over.
Not really a blog... more of a website that allows me to actually have an attempt for accomplishing some dreams i have. Might die like this website, but at least I can say i tried.

When Thezenofben is created, you guys will know.

Anyway, goodbye blogosphere. For now, at least.

I got to stop wasting my life away.

This is war. And I can only win it with God by my side.

Ok. Good night. Gotta try waking up early once in a while.

This is not a good bye. This is a "see you later, alligator"

再见。