under construction

To prove that i'm actually doing something, hears a sneak preview.

Its gonna fail like this blog anyway but never mind.

When it officially opens you guys will know. Thanks!

lolololol

Thezenofben will be created once Ben is bored. That could be anytime within the next 10 years. Anyway this blog won't be updated till then. Sorry.

Ty for visiting.

Dictionary for frustrated people

Medical Electronics [med-i-kuh i-lek-tron-iks, ee-lek-tron-iks]

-noun

1. A compulsory core subject in Biomedical Informatics & Engineering that Ben Leong is going to fail so bad
2. A inane process of doing something over and over and over and over again to see some elusive signal in a oscilloscope
3. Something that one puts in all his blood, sweat and tears in, but yielding nothing in return.



Pardon my language, but I really need to let it out.

FUCK IT.

Sorry.

I need something to at least work so badly. Let's not talk about any other subjects. Like Netfund. Why does it seem like I'm the only one in class who find it repulsive?


HALP

Every new beginning come from some other beginning's end.

First off, I would like to announce that Beninhisden.blogspot.com will be made obsolete soon. I just not a blog kind of person, I realised.

And blogspot is unfriendly in uploading images.
Blogspot is quite fail actually.

I'm kind of thinking of starting anew... u know? something more different. more weird. more adventurous. more epic.

Not a blog though.

Maybe like a personal website or something.

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I like comics.
I like songwriting.
I like photography.
I hate blogging. Or reading other ppl's blogs, for the matter. Not yours, though. Your blog is awesome. If you have one. I'm talking about other people's ones. Yep.


All my life, I had lots of ideas running around my head. They can be anything involving me doing something big. And successful. Things like manning a successful enterprise. Or being a successful rock star. Or a successful rugby player.

Then I have more simple but still kinda-unrealistic ideas. Like successfully writing a proper song. Or have my own successful webcomic. Or successfuly updating a blog.

But the thing is, no matter what dreams or what funny ideas i have, I never even accomplish it.

Because I don't even attempt it.

Damn you facebook quizzes, computer games, bad websites... damn you things that waste my time!

I wasted a good amount of my life on things that never mattered. Maybe it mattered for that minute. I did not use it to start building my dreams into reality.

Simple "dreams" like getting my GPA out of the 2.3 region (there. I made it public) by actually sitting down and studying has been destroyed because of my love of wasting time. I am more than capable of doing it. But the point is, i'm not even trying.

rrrgh.

Anyway, my current short term goal is to score good marks for my semester exams. Thats my last chance of redemption. Quizzes are gone. Virtually all of them.

Oh, and also to reach school on time for once.

Unfortunately, the only way to do this is to declare war on everything that stops me from doing anything productive. (except playing guitar. That is considered productive usage of time. Seriously)

First thing to do is to stop typing now at 1.15 am and actually sleep early. That way I won't wake up late tomorrow.

Next, I should try and write another song.

Then spent some time with God, and sleep.

Wake up early.

Revise maths for upcoming quiz.

Start soldering. Yes, i did not even solder my ecg project. I'm probally the last one in class.

Shit!







Anyway, back to my first point, i'll probably stop updating beninhisden. Maybe only for memes, because memes are awesome.

Blogging is a total waste of time.

But ironically i hope to start another blog once exams are over.
Not really a blog... more of a website that allows me to actually have an attempt for accomplishing some dreams i have. Might die like this website, but at least I can say i tried.

When Thezenofben is created, you guys will know.

Anyway, goodbye blogosphere. For now, at least.

I got to stop wasting my life away.

This is war. And I can only win it with God by my side.

Ok. Good night. Gotta try waking up early once in a while.

This is not a good bye. This is a "see you later, alligator"

再见。

Is there something wrong with blogspot!?!?!?

I can't seem to write a post properlly!!! I writing this on the "preview" screen, and theres like a big white space in between this little box and the title.... everything is basically screwed up. I can't upload photos or do nothing.

Someone help!

upcoming changes in every dang thing

im in your netfund lab, not doing your lab work....

Firstly i would like to say i really dislike netfund, to the point that i find it the most boring subject i have taken in poly. Its not because its hard or what, its reeeeeeeeeally dry. If I wanted to learn how to set up a LAN shop, I would have joined IT. Thats what i keep telling ppl.

Anyway I want to make changes. Firstly in this blog.

I want to start updating regularly again. Sorry for the 1 month lapse of updates. I would like to start by redesigning the whole thing. Either change the skin or make my own (don't know how, can ask ppl). I would give the cute dog a break from screaming "BEN IN HIS DEN!" everytimesomeone comes here (which is like once every year). He'll be relegated into a smaller role, with hopefully some new "artwork".

Next, I want to make changes in my studies. I have to start nao. No more procastination/.

I also want to honour my commitment to not sleep past 2 o' clock, and come to school on time for a change.

That would be all. Too much change is bad. Even Obama takes his Change pledge slow, so i better do that too.

I'm going through changes. - Ozzy Osbourne

Killing Fields re-uploaded. Fuck you terrorists.

This was written after the Mumbai attacks. I'm re-posting this in response to the recent Jakarta bombing.

This kind of shit really affects me. I don't see why so many innocent people have to die so unnecessarily like this. I really really really still can't grasp what the ones who commit such deeds gain. This was an attempt to get into their minds and try to fathom what are going on in their minds. This is as close I can get. But I still don't understand.

Killing Fields Of Hate

Killing fields of hate
Killing fields of blood so red
How I love to fight in your
Killing fields of hate

See these guns and bombs of mine
With these I put my life on the line
And on the blood of innocents I shall dine

See all this unbridled rage
Demons released from its cage
I will turn the page

What for? I don’t know
For peace? Love? Justice? God?
It seems that death is the only way
Maybe I’m brainwashed.
Maybe I’m possessed
Or maybe I just love to be in the

Killing fields of hate
Killing fields of blood so red
How I love to die
In your killing fields of hate

See the lies I have swallowed
And the ammunition I have borrowed
Hatred and prejudice soon followed

See the people in the meadow
If only they just lined up and follow
Where they deserved to be they shall go

What for? Personal gain?
Someone arrest me or I’ll kill them
Corrupted by the inconvenient truth of man
Maybe I’m crazy
Maybe I’m suicidal
Or maybe I just love to be in the

Killing fields of hate
Killing fields of blood so red
How everyone is going to suffer
In my personal fields of hate

Wow an update

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